I don't know how other people feel when they move away from home for the first time, or far away for the first time. For me, it comes in waves of sadness. I was expecting to be more happy or excited, but knowing I'm now going to be away from all I know and love has been seriously dampening my enthusiasm.
I am not by nature an organized woman. For my wedding my and Michael's moms were the only thing that kept the whole thing together at all. Now for a cross country move, to different climate, driving my husband and dog 14 days across America, and wrapping up life in California is HARD. I've researched and planned and prepared and given myself pep talks and yet still, as tonight I am finishing up the last minute packing I realize I'm more upset than I've had time to notice.
Knowing I can't take coffee to my dad at work, or watch a movie with my mom, or wrestle with their dogs is suddenly devastatingly awful. Michael got a similar revelation today as he realized this was the last night we were sleeping at his parents house.
I'm hoping once we get on the road tomorrow it will just feel exciting and not exhausting like it does right now.
I am not by nature an organized woman. For my wedding my and Michael's moms were the only thing that kept the whole thing together at all. Now for a cross country move, to different climate, driving my husband and dog 14 days across America, and wrapping up life in California is HARD. I've researched and planned and prepared and given myself pep talks and yet still, as tonight I am finishing up the last minute packing I realize I'm more upset than I've had time to notice.
Knowing I can't take coffee to my dad at work, or watch a movie with my mom, or wrestle with their dogs is suddenly devastatingly awful. Michael got a similar revelation today as he realized this was the last night we were sleeping at his parents house.
I'm hoping once we get on the road tomorrow it will just feel exciting and not exhausting like it does right now.
1 comment:
God has not only gone before you HE is going with you! How glorious is that! Thank you dear ones for
being such a blessing to your parents as you have walked out the first steps of this adventure. You two are great examples of loving others in an open and transparent way. Love, Aunt Terri
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